I am sorry for those of you that are worried about me now… please don’t. I know that this post is totally out of character for me. I wrote this because yes, I was upset, but more importantly, because I want others to know that the most important thing that I can do for myself and my family is to follow what I believe is God’s plan for me, and that goes for any of us. Who’s to say what anyone else should be doing?
This isn’t about what someone did or said to me. This is about another Christian making a comment that others will read which I feel was incorrect and not based upon His word.
So, I searched the word to find a scripture that would help this make sense to me and to you, and I came to 1 Corinthians 2:6-16. Here Paul talks about the wisdom given to us through the Spirit. He says in verses 13-16:
“This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom, but in words taught by the Spirit, expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words. The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned. The spiritual man makes judgements about all things, but he himself is not subject to any man’s judgement: “For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him?” But we have the mind of Christ.”
Because of this scripture, I know that I am the only one who knows what God has called me to do and therefore I should not be judged for that decision. And, I have no way of knowing what God has asked of you, and therefore I cannot judge you.
My relationship with Christ is the most important thing in my life. Other than that relationship, my life is dedicated to Trey and Chloe. I am blessed beyond imagination to share life with my sweet baby girl and her dad, the best dad in the world.
I prayed a lot, and I mean A LOT about the decision to go back to work, and in the end, I just knew that God had me teaching for a reason. I am thankful that I get to be the best mom to Chloe 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, and also I get the chance to make a difference in 18 eight- year-olds‘ lives every day. Wow. What a calling and what a blessing.
Just because I am not physically taking care of her every moment of every day does not make me a bad mom, a bad person, someone who has “missed their calling as a mom”. Instead, this makes me a better mom. I am fulfilling my passion and calling to make a positive impact on kids’ lives– not just my own child. Chloe is loving daycare. And those three ladies keeping care of her have a calling too- to love on my daughter so I can love on my kids at school. She is happy when I pick her up and I look forward to nothing more than seeing that smile on her face when I arrive. I spend the afternoons and evenings and weekends with a 7 month old attached to my hip, and those are the very best parts of my week. BUT, I also love my job. I love what it stands for, and I love that I can be secure enough in my relationship with the Lord to realize that His plan for my life is what matters. Yes, he has blessed me with a daughter, a healthy baby girl. But my life— actually God living life through me– is much more than being a mom! He has called me to be a working mom, and I can say that without a doubt, I know I am doing the right thing.
Of course, I am not saying that staying at home is not wonderful too. I am only saying that for me, for now, this is what I am supposed to do.
>So, it’s official… I am back at work and my summer is O-V-E-R. Today was my first day back at school, but this time I will be teaching a new grade with a new team in a new room! I am so excited about the upcoming school year… among many reasons is the fact that I have a handful of my first graders from two years ago! That was one of my most favorite classes, so I am just giddy about having those kids again this year!